Ps : Forgive my broken english . Before this , this blog is a draft from me at 4 August 2011 .Then now im free for drop it here .For what i want to record it at first ? Its because i dont wish to lost or forget what is my feeling at that moment .And what is the words that inside my mind and i wanna vent it out .My spirit , my soul , my heart .. melting .I've do my best in my position , but i still cant get people's recognition .Yeah , i need to be more patient . Im stingy , i know this world cannot afford my stingy style . So i need to hide it...